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Deep Sage

by Gouge Away

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1.
Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Such a deep sleep Forgot to breathe Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Redundancy A boring thing No in-betweens Of the extremes Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Clouds are not as soft as they seem Stars always glisten the same Stuck Stuck Stuck Stuck Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream Stuck in a dream God, I just want to wake up God, I just want to wake up God, I just want to wake up God, I just want to wake up God, I just want to wake up God, I just want to wake up God, I just want to wake up God, I just want to wake up Up up up up up Up up up up up Up up up up up Up up up up up
2.
Maybe Blue 03:14
Your hair has been growing longer Food in the fridge is going bad The plants are in need of water It's so much harder when you're sad Headlights drawing circles Chasing our own tails Getting dizzy with the seasons I just want this ride to end Burning under the bright lights I would rather run and hide How much more do we need to see? I already know where I wanna be Doesn't this mean we have no choice but to change? Doesn't this mean we have no choice but to change? Doesn't this mean we have no choice but to change? Doesn't this mean Can we go back to when the ceiling was breathing? Can we go back to when the wood grain was dripping? Can we go back to when the ceiling was breathing? Can we go back to when the wood grain was dripping? Doesn't this mean we have no choice but to change? Doesn't this mean we have no choice but to change? Doesn't this mean we have no choice but to change? Doesn't this mean
3.
Idealized 03:41
I never said it was an easy conversation, Just not one I need to have with you I have my reasons, which I'll live with Don't need permission from you Negotiations of timing When it's all the same thing Using life as a consequence Nevermind the harm it's causing Ooooo Ooooo Ooooo No apology No apology No apology Don't wanna go through life Seeking validation From a stranger or a neighbor or an institution Before you form your picket lines, Look within your picket fences Your fantasy was never something I needed to live with Ooooo Ooooo Ooooo No apology No apology No apology No apology means no apology No apology means no apology No apology means no apology No apology means no apology
4.
Deep Sage 02:54
It was clear where I was standing But ahead it was a deep sage It was clear where I was standing But ahead it was deep deep deep I have a tendency To get in over my head lately Hypnotized by the branches bouncing Wishing that it could be that easy And it seems so bleak So we close our eyes and breathe And try to be here now But I don't know how And it seems so bleak So we close our eyes and breathe And try to be here now But look around It was clear where I was standing But ahead it was so deep It was clear where I was standing But ahead it was deep deep deep And lately the greater meaning Being unknowing It feels too heavy lately It feels too heavy Try to count down from ten But keep getting lost in my own head Try to be here now But look around and around and around and around and And it seems so bleak So we close our eyes and breathe And try to be here now But I don't know how And it seems so bleak So we close our eyes and breathe And try to be here now But look around
5.
Found myself upside down, folded in half at the waist Separating vertebrae, to pull from anything Looking for a feeling Looking for a word Looking for a memory To strike some kind of chord And it isn't like me to stop Isn't like me to stop to breathe Fill it up, empty it out Release, repeat. Usually can't get out once I've opened it up Steps of a ribcage, too much to climb up Looking for a feeling Looking for a word Looking for a memory To strike some kind of chord And it isn't like me to stop Isn't like me to stop to breathe Fill it up, empty it out Release, repeat. And it isn't like me to be still Isn't like me to wait Fill it up, empty it out Release, repeat. Breathing space between vertebrae Maybe nothing's a welcome change Breathing space between vertebrae Maybe nothing's a welcome change
6.
Overwatering 02:12
I asked my guides to send me a sign But it never came If the answer's inside of me Then I must be the one to blame I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside I wanted to give my love Clumsily poured too much Now I can't take it back I tried to plant it but it just rot I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside Held it in my hand Forced my thumb in Ripped the skin Pulled it back I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside I took the sweetness from the inside Softening Losing shape Becoming weak Overwatering
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No Release 01:48
It comes creeping, crawls up the throat Lungs tighten, nowhere to go Can't control it, It's in the blood Can't control it, It's in the blood What if the stakes change, never escape Muscles tensen, legs shake Can't control it, It's in the blood Can't control it, It's in the blood Feeling nauseous, no release Getting breathless, it's hard to think Can't control it, It's in the blood Can't control it, It's in the blood It's too dark, can't comprehend Are my eyes shut, or open? The light cannot escape from sedation I'm getting out, I'm not asking permission The light cannot escape from sedation I'm getting out, I'm not asking permission
8.
What's better than a brand-new pencil? One that comes flat, which you could sharpen to a point And if you stabbed me in the chest over again You'd expect me to clean up the mess Maybe it's not me Maybe it's not me Maybe it's not me Maybe it's not me Save the trees and carve it into me Allow your whole world to see But have you asked yourself if that's what you think Why would you want me around anyway? Maybe it's not me Maybe it's not me Maybe it's not me Maybe it's not me Maybe it's not me Maybe it's not me Maybe it's not me Maybe it's the sharpening It's the sharpening It's the Maybe it's the sharpening It's the sharpening It's the Maybe it's the sharpening It's the sharpening It's the Maybe it's the sharpening It's the sharpening It's the
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Spaced Out 01:44
I need space I need space I need space I need space So close I can taste your breath No pauses to wonder what's next Gonna do something I might regret If you don't take several steps back I need space I need space I need space I need space I need space I need space I need space I need space I need space I just wanna be spaced out! I just need to be spaced out! I just wanna be spaced out! I just need to be spaced out! I've got five fingers that have got something to say It'd be best for us if you'd just go away I'm so damn bored I could C-R-Y Running your mouth asking to die, die, die I need space I just wanna be spaced out! I just need to be spaced out! I just wanna be spaced out! I just need to be spaced out! I just wanna be spaced out! I just need to be spaced out! I just wanna be spaced out! I just need to be - I need space
10.
Newtau 03:44
Tell me Tell me What do you want of my love? I can't seem to give enough What do you want of my patience? I'm tired of waiting You might not get what you want But you'll get what you need So tell me Tell me Tell me, tell me, tell me What's an apology If you just keep doing bad things? What's an apology If you just keep doing bad things? Just keep doing bad things Just keep doing bad things Just keep doing bad things Just keep doing bad things You might not get what you want But you'll get what you need You might not get what you want But you'll get what you deserve So tell me Tell me Tell me, tell me, tell me So tell me Tell me I'm not forcing things that don't fit And I'm not playing dead I'm not cowering again And I'm not gonna hurt you back But if you try me, I will But if you try me, I will But if you try me, I will But if you try me, I will But if you try me, I will But if you try me, I will But if you try me, I will But if you try me, I will But if you try me, I will But if you try me, I will But if you try me, I will
11.
Dallas 06:02
High as night in the bathroom, fan humming Drowning out a chance of thought, bare feet stuck On humid artificial wood, rippled by the moisture Harboring black mold, weighing on the air Swaying like there's no ceiling, and like fingertips aren't stuck Swaying like there's no ceiling, and like fingertips aren't stuck Swaying like there's no ceiling, and like fingertips aren't stuck Swaying like there's no ceiling, I feel so Absent Absent Absent Absent Knees locked, feel the blood stop reaching toes Thighs slow to separate from the bone Strands of hair turn to clumps, matted tile corners What I'd give to help, to make you understand Swaying like there's no ceiling, and like fingertips aren't stuck Swaying like there's no ceiling, and like fingertips aren't stuck Swaying like there's no ceiling, and like fingertips aren't stuck Swaying like there's no ceiling, I feel so Absent Absent Absent Absent I don't know what you want me to say You want an explanation but I can barely breathe Brain's evaporation and I'm just trying to hold on But I feel so Absent Absent Absent Absent Far away from everything Suddenly learned that dying was the cruelest thing I could ever do to somebody who would miss me But I can't stop feeling Absent Absent Absent Absent Ooooo ooooo ooooo ooooo Ooooo ooooo ooooo ooooo

about

Deep Sage, Gouge Away’s third studio album, started coming together in 2019 during sound checks and in small pockets of downtime between tours. In early 2020, they demoed with Brok Mende in an unassuming storage unit in Orlando. They pulled influence not only from the nostalgia of the bands they grew up listening to but also developed the sense of urgency, noise, and introspective lyrics they felt most represented them. Those demos helped shape the songs into the finished record that Deep Sage would become.

Then everything came to a halt in 2020 when a full year of plans were canceled in an instant. With the rug pulled out from under them, their backs against the wall, and no way to change the situation they were in, the members of Gouge Away had no choice but to go on a hiatus. They moved to different parts of the country and focused on their personal lives, accepting that those songs were never going to see the light of day.

But the songs lived as files waiting to be rediscovered and every once in a while, they’d get the urge to listen to them again. On New Year's Eve just before 2022, they decided to reconnect and finish writing the album with Portland, OR becoming their new writing location. While everyone was in town for a writing session, Militarie Gun had a show down the street at Mano Oculta and invited Gouge Away to play a couple of songs during their set as a surprise. It was the first show the band had played in three years and the live debut of “Maybe Blue”. Energized by the reaction, the band finished writing. They had an overabundance of material, slashing songs from the final tracklist left and right. They not only elaborated on the urgent and abrasive qualities they were known for but broadened their melodic traits too.

Deep Sage was recorded with Jack Shirley at Atomic Garden East in March 2023 completely analog and almost entirely live. The band recorded together in a live room while Christina was in an isolation booth. Her vocals projected from a monitor so the band could hear her. The goal of recording live was to sound like five friends playing in a room together, just like where they started in Florida. Unpolished and far from being over-produced, this is what the heart of Gouge Away has always been.

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released March 15, 2024

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Gouge Away Fort Lauderdale, Florida

Christina Michelle
Mick Ford
Thomas Cantwell
Tyler Forsythe
Dylan Downey

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